Lack of Friends Sorta Sucks
Lately, I’ve been thinking a lot about some of my old friends. I don’t really talk to any of them anymore. A while back, I messaged several of them on Myspace, but only one replied. I don’t think I’ve seen her in seven years (since we graduated high school.) She actually expressed interest in hanging out with me and catching up and all that, but I never really followed through. That was a couple months ago now. We texted each other once after that, but it was just inane, meaningless conversation (”How are you?” “Fine.” That was basically it.) I don’t really “get” Myspace. These people are my “friends” on there, yet we aren’t really friends anymore. I remember when I used to actually hang out with a different one of them, after high school even. At one point she lived with some old lady, providing in home care for her. Every time we tried to go out, she would get a phone call from this woman bitching her out about something-or-other, or needing something, and we would have to go back to her house so she could take care of it. I don’t even know how one gets hooked up with a job like that. I think it was through the paper or something, rather than in home care listings or anything like that. She’s moved away now, but we had basically stopped talking well before that.
I don’t know what it is lately that makes me feel sort of nostalgic for the days when I was friends with these people, even though they weren’t always great friends to me. I guess it probably has something to do with the fact that I don’t really have any friends now. I was sort of friends with some of my coworkers from my last job, but we never really talked outside of work. Well, except for one Monique, we went over to her apartment once, a long time ago, and we texted back and forth a bit on Christmas. I don’t know what it is that makes it so difficult for me to connect with people. I have Zack, and he’s my best friend + so much more, but it would be nice to have some other friends, and maybe even some female friends.
